Having read a fantastic blog last week regarding Totem Animals it got me thinking about previous experiences I have had either with what I would call my Spirit Guides or with family who are no longer with us physically.
I wouldn’t say that I am an incredibly spiritual person but there are marked periods on an annual basis where I am far more aware of the spiritual life surrounding myself. I have bought a range of self-help books ranging from meeting & working with spirit guides, seeing & reading the aura, an angel a day and so on…. I was always “scared” of having my tarot cards read and refused to indulge in this until after my Dad had died. I suppose the fear was that the cards would reveal he would die – erm isn’t that life? At 38 I can answer that question a little bit better than 24.
Upon moving to France my path crossed with someone who gave me the confidence to explore life a little more. And so my understanding of Tarot began. I have two sets of cards. The Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot , these cards are relatively familiar to people interested in tarot and offer a wide range of interpretations. I enjoy using them when reading for other people. The pictures are clear and stimulating.
My second set of cards are more personal and I have never used them in a reading for someone else simply because I feel they require far more thought, meditation and inner searching. The Vision Quest Tarot are a set of Native American Wisdom cards which are beautifully illustrated. When I was in hospital last year I found myself turning to these cards on a regular basis. They helped me to accept the situation I was in and draw a great deal of strength from it. The nurses were very curious as to the meanings of these cards, trying to convey their meaning in a language which is not my mother tongue was quite challenging.
So where do the Polar bears come into it? Several years ago I experienced a meditation session. When asked to focus on an animal the first one that came into my head was a Polar bear. I can’t say I like or dislike this animal but it is an animal which I believe is with me as a guide. This links in with the blog from last week “What is your totem animal” and especially this other website which explores each animal in turn. I was fascinated to read about the Polar bear and how as an animal totem it can help me to understand certain issues. Looking back I now know why the Polar bear was with me that day.
And then there is the dragonfly , to me she represents the fragility of life. I see them often battling against the Mistral / Tramontane winds and the heat of the summer sunshine. I am so drawn to this insect with it’s grace and beauty.